moving on baby

booo:(

2010-03-07T21:31:00.006+08:00

current mood, dang(: Hello, i know i havent been updating lately. I swear I have no mood to blog. Really and wish my blogs not gonna be dead when school starts aite.I just wish everything would be back per normal but it seems hard though.Rahhhh. I give up and im just here. Anyway, im starting work tomorrow. Im leaving, changing and forgetting the past. What had happened to me? Gosh, im so depressed after i heard that. At some point of time, you were like this, and then, wow. What a change in you. Nomatter what, i'll still love you and rmbr you. Anyway, im clubbing soon. Hope to have fun and pit this misery aside.

So, just a flash back on wht happened during the past 'times'.

5th march:

-Karaoke-ing at grandlink(: Marshi,mira,didi,mus, is superb nice(:
-When to Parkway late, funfun, went to book store(: bought earpiecccccce. Makan at macdonalds , yummy mcspicy.
-After slack, homeeeeee~

6th march:

-Hme, errrr?
-Drank w sister and her bf, after a week, so cool kankankan? I saw OUR flasback, cried, and sister's always nice as usual, big hugs~

Today:

-Home, boring
-moderate, reminices*STRESS*

Tomorrow:

-Work frm 8am to 5pm , yeay~ RealeaseStress!
-With didi&nat, yeay us~ vry interesting do wrk can crap somemore, heh.

Yeah, so that's my time table for the past few days.

Basically my mood was not really constant as sometimes im happy, sad, worried, dilemma, random? heh. Anyway, q bottle scratched me, so pain:(

very weak. i dunno why im crying over you. why did you do this to me wawa? why? why dont you love me, the way i love you. it feels so crazy. cause im tired of crying thinking of what you did to me. yup, i dun believe what you did. yup its true. you maybe thinking that i am alright all, but im in dilemma. should i or should i not?i just wonder what were you thinking at that point of time. why dear? why did you do this to me? you have me and you did that. i just cant believe it myself, when jay talked to me abt this, i cried, i cudnt control my feelings. really im sorry to bring up this thing again, im sorry, but you dun noe what i tot alrights. im still so disappointed in you. even though i accepted ur apologies, you made me think that im still not a good girl for you. First it was with your ex, and now this? but, you put urself inside my shoes, you would know. im still disappointed in you. what makes you so sure that we cudnt pull through this? i dunno. i dunno. gosh, why? when i love you so much and you do this to me? yup, i trust you but if you really lied to me about this, im very very very disappointed alrights. you may not know how i feel without you, but im lonely. im crying all night thinking of what you are doing, how are you, do you still remember me. im lost. lost in this world. im tired of crying exku.

p/s: im just hopeless. i dunno what to do now. i hate my life. why this always happen to me. i just wanaa be myself alright. i dunno whn wud happiness strike me. whatever lah. take care people and hope to get back soon.

Gooodnight earthlinks, sleeep tight(:
Dun let the bed bugs bitteee.
Tata, Love;
Ida Dherose

2010-03-04T01:49:00.004+08:00

from:idah!!:D(sexy)

Dear mR nueva:well,all i gotta say is that don't ever give up easily ok,be strong.

i hope i could bring you up when you're down dear friend:)

here's a poem i made for u(:

i nid u,Jay
everitime i chat wit u

i swear d whole world stops

cos every word u type

is so beautiful dat

my tears vanish into thin air

im so glad that your my fren

and i dont nid cars or money

cos all i nid is u to be my fren forever

mintak2 ur smiling after reading dis

apart*

2010-03-04T01:46:00.003+08:00

mood:down Wake up idah!Wake UP IDAH!
i hoped too much..
I feel really dumb,dumb,dumb!
2 weeks of relationship!!
time really flies so fast just like that.
Im hurt by you,thanks.
only god knows how terrible it is to have that feelings.
im still trying to forget you...
well,whatever it is everything has happened...Goodbye love.

sunday:out with mamakakakabang&wifepluskids
Monday;Out with nina&nat bby& with the rest.
tuesday:stay home

Hello wednesday!

mama woke me up early in the morning,she asked me to get dress asap & to follow her to buy my school stuff.

Someone text me.
someone:idah,wer you?
me:ite bishan!wer you?:D
someone:im outside the canteen too:D.want meet???
me:later maybe im goin off,nvm maybe meet next time aites:D
someone:yeay ok,idah can date you out soon?:D
me:hehe.lol.sweets.yeah can we'll see about that!:D
someone:the greatest gift!
me:lol,yeahyeah!
someone:wer you nw??saw me??
me:hehe.i now trying on uniform.didn't catch you.hehe=.=
someone:ler..i thought u at outside already...
me:still happilly choosing baju..

see how belo i am,people are going off ready then i like tersesat with mama.hehe..

err...k i won't eleberate much after that.went Abang shop with mama.hehe.Guess what?i went home to sleep awhile.wtF!
eeeewwwww....so yeah i was late for 5 minutes.i keep on complaining that i can't stand my sleepiness..ngantok siolll.hehe*.*
we went to banquet to eat.
i oredered fried kway teow&she ordered fried kway teow.wah!im sooo bored,didi almost finish off her food when im eating.hehe.i can't finish my food bcus i talk alot already.
Thanks darling,for cheering me up.She make me laugh with their layan-ing my nonsense crap nak mampos punya merepek.hehe:D.then went toys are us.Shee say i budak2=(.wah!pdadahal,die lagi rabak:D.She went to all sections like a small kid.good job shawty:D.Two thumbs up!We started to take some things and hit&throw at each other.hehe
After she disturbed me alot,she Saw her friends again.what a coincidence.
we grabbed the toys are us appication form.i filled up for her:D.I'm so stress with didi school history.eee!!

Nina syg,im really really sorry that i tak jumpe at bedok.ily=)

I planned to work at this pub with ddi mesti gerek kan kene keje same2..boohoooo..lol;D
Now,im chatting with jay:D.she just couldn't stop talking about updating blog.wheee done...ps jay:U must takecare of me yeh.hehe:D
Someone,kawan lame contact me just now.whee happy..i thought forget me ready.
you guys are MISSED.rabak korang mia ehh.bite kang!hehe

i had a great time baby:D

thursday:ask me out anyonee??:)

psst:i received alot of poems!yeepee!!thx all!!:D

loves;idah:D

falling

2010-02-27T19:49:00.004+08:00

How i wish i could look into your eyes again..

When im setting aside my ego, and i wanna stroke your face, this came by. I miss teasing you and see you snigger.

How i wish you could understand how devasting this experience is.

I thought you was falling for me before.

The feelings of loneliness and longing were almost too much to handle after you said those words.

Leaving this fate seemed like a hopeless endeavor... The possibility of us reuniting was an entertaining idea that gave me hope amidst the pain I was feeling... But that's all it was... an idea... a thought that sometimes made me even lonelier knowing it wasn't a reality...

I know whats going to be YOUR decision I'm going let you leave with happiness...

"How did life get like this?!?"

I didn't even know I was capable of loving another person the way I did to you... and to know that you didn't feel the same about me was crushing...

All the dreams and plans of my future with her fell apart, leaving me lonely and confused. I was handling the last breakup pretty bad... maybe you cant relate...

Replaying movies in my head of how things used to be (smelling her scent, having your fingers in my hands, seeing your smile) only to wake up in an empty bed ALONE and LOST... Getting through the past three days took so much effort... I would have to FORCE myself to roll out of bed every morning. I constantly check my phone.. Man I hated my phone at times... Instead of Dr. medicine... my therapists were Dr. liquor... which i never had... that could temporarily take away the pain I was feeling. The things in life I used to enjoy didn't seem to have meaning anymore. Im NON-STOP thinking of you... It's like she secretly hijacked my head or something... Constantly rehearsing what I could have said, what I will say if I see her again, and analyzing why she really left me. AND.... the mere thought of her being PHYSICALLY INTIMATE with that person behind my back was enough to make me sick to my stomach.

The aftermath of my last breakup was almost too overwhelming to cope with...

So here im sitting, alone in my bed, wallowing in my sorrow when I glanced over to my dressing table and saw a huge pink flower with two empty white wrappers that had necklace in it beneath a red little paper bag. It was her gifts that I recieved upon her proposal.. I approached to touch it up and when my eyes caught got watery as i hold in in my hands.

See there was something inside of that I guess you could say I hope for a turning point, a light-bulb moment if you will... I realized that...

How much I miss...

Being able to talk for endless hours about everything and anything again. To be able to think out loud because you know she won't judge me

Seeing her smile again.

Being able to hug and hold her again.

Smelling her scent again.

The feel of her hand when she's holding mine.

They way they kiss my shoulder.

The funny story's, the goofing around, the inside jokes.

Having fun again, smiling again, laughing again.

Being back in that special little world that we created where nothing else matters.

The one i had in mind (Y)

2010-02-25T14:07:00.006+08:00

To:Dear

I miss the talks we used to have, I miss the voice I used to hear... I miss hearing your crazy but cool stories, and above all these... I just miss you!Sometimes I miss you so much, that you appear in my dreams this morning and i wake up to hug you but you wasn't here! Better never to have met you in my dream than to wake and reach for hands that are not there.
I fell for someone who changed her mind. You said you'll be there for me. I really wish you could be right now. I really wish I could just run into your arms, and instead just watching my tears fall - I could drown you in them.

I've been sleeping. And how much more rest do I need? Until I stop living life in a daze?
If this is goodbye, do come back. If this is the end, don't wake me up.
My giving in all these while doesn't always mean im weak; it means that you are strong enough to let go. Today, you're living with out knowing that you have become such a part of my life... Why did you say 'I like you' if you don't care. Why did you talk about feelings if they're not there. Why did you touch my life if you mean to break a heart.

How i wish we could make our answers together for the 'broken' song. There are just no words to choose over losing you. I guess I found out out too late, and now all I feel is heartbreak that only hurts when I breathe. A hundred hearts would be too few to carry the strong feelings i have for you. The ones that i love the most are usually the ones that hurt me the most.

Now that I have loved so deeply, I have realized how lonely I really am. There is nothing sadder in this life than to watch someone you love walk away after you gave your heart to the person. To watch the distance between our two bodies expand until there is nothing left but empty space... and silence.

Some people say the worst way to miss someone is when they are right next to you and you know you can't have them, but it's worse when you thought you didn't want them anymore and then all of a sudden you realize you can't live without them. Maybe if I had just looked away that first night when we sat together, everything would be different and my heart wouldn't be breaking right now.I wish that you were here or that I were there, or that we were together anywhere! I woke up just like having the worst nightmare after having the best dream.

The most important things are the hardest to say, because words diminish them.

You were the one that could alway make me smile
You were the one that could always make me laugh
You were the one who could always tell when i was mad
You were the one who always knew i was shy just by looking in my eyes
You were the one i always trusted
You were the one that told me u never wanted to lose me but.....
You were the one that let me down
You were the one that broke a promise to me
You were the one i never thought would do that
You were the one who broke me heart

i miss love

2010-02-24T20:17:00.011+08:00

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY

SHANKY

BABY:D

lastly,hope you wishes and dreams come true!!
happy birthday shankk! hope you enjoy your day to the fullest.Find a girlfr okay.

mood:sad&uneasy:(
Hello sweets!
nothing excites me today.i was gloomy all day.kakak asked me why i was looking not in the mood&i sounded so bored.Help me!i cried in my bed just now.I was feeling really shit today.grrrr!!:(

& i don't really know why.
my handphone and lappy is such a spoilt brat.really.the connection like have problem with me.it kills me.boohoo.
i miss baby so much.
i wonder if bee miss me too??
i am sad.
i am sad.
i am sad.
i am sad.
i am sad.
maybe bcus i miss bee too much.
i want meet baby.
i don't want to be a cry baby but i just coldn't help it.
im breaking.
Now,i couldn't think properly.you hurt me and it is painfull!

yesterday:
i really enjoyed my day yesterday.*insert smiles*
At around 3 plus meet didi,nat and nina at woodlands.Thank god it wasn't raining bcus it seems that the clouds are forming together which means RAINING!=.= but yeah it didn't:D
We walked to this 'orange block'.we decided to slack there.we talked,crapped,laugh-ed,gossips and doing stuff yang tak perlu.hehe.After we got bored,we decided to disturb people.^^
we played stress!didi and i was like,huh?acmana nie tak tau main!!hehe But overoll i had lotsa fun with girlfies:D
and i'm really stress bcus i lose the game with nina.boohoo:'(
Thanks to didi for helping me how to play.hehe.and i did make stress.
the funniest part was that i lose millions and billions of time!hehe.okay fake.
After the four hours time,didi and me decided to go home becsause someone wanted to watch her acting in the dikir putri show.^^
meet real soon GF's!^^
the whole meet up thing was a last minute thing.i had lotsa fun!

didi&nat!!i really miss you guys!:'(

it's true for now.everything changes.
Eventhough i should but i think i shoudn't care less.
i'm going with the flow.
having a hard time figuring what will it be next.
things are not working out so well anymore.
tell me what you really want,maybe i'll understood and let it go
what will be next up?

till then,
loves;
idah

sickkyy.

2010-02-22T03:11:00.003+08:00

mood:exhausted&tired,Im silly as ever=.=
hello to all creatures on earth!:D
im really tired now but i just feel like bogging here..
sunday: well,started with a mundane morning.piggy!
spent my whole day at home.

spring cleaning*
&clean my wardrobe.
help mama bake cake.
i told mama i want shift my wardrobe.And change wall colour.pretty pleasee..
I'm eyeing on this mango sweather which cost me 73 bucks.
was waiting for baby's text but she didn't reply me.
i chatted with shanky to listen my apart of heart out.&yes,i feel relieved:)

goodnight sweethearts,
loves;idah

sometimes;i kept on thinking whether my feelings are right?/
or is it a mistake oOorr is it for real?/
ouh my,the feelings kept me asking over & over again...why why why??

wee

2010-02-21T02:18:00.006+08:00

mood:amused!
i received poems from this friend of minee aka MS POETRY.She is the
coolest person on earth:D

tonight
will be the last night
i cHat with you
dun be surprised if im not online for a week
and dun be worried if im not online for a mth
i'll be fine,i promise
and everynight before i sleep
i will look at the night sky
outside my window
and make a wish on the biggest and brightest star
that u will be fine and happy forever
and if u nid somebody
u can message me anytime and anywhere
cos im always there for you
miss me when im gone .
when ur heart
dropped on the floor
and bleeds red
i'll pick it up
bring it to a place
where i will donate my blood
to keep it beating
den i'll put a plaster on it
and bring it to you
losing blood is nothing to me
compared to losing you
and my heart can endure d pain of losing blood

if one day you were to go missing
i'll be goin back to the place
where i first saw you
and all i'll bring with me is
a picture of you and a cardboard
with a saying
im waiting for a girl named waheedah
every morning and night
ur pic will be hold tight in my hand
not even a second will i let it go
even if it were to rain heavily
accompanied with thunderstorms
im not moving anywhere
cos i wanna stand my ground
and wait for you
even if it were to take
weeks,months or years
i would still be waiting patiently
and just by looking at ur picture
makes me forget bout my fears and the time that pass by
let me be famous for
the man who cant be moved
so hopefully 1 day
u will know bout me
and come running to the place where
u first saw me(:

okay,i received alot of beautiful poems from Ms poetry:D
thanks so much:) hugs&smoochies;idah:D

I miss dancing!!I miss dancing!!
ok then,bye

i guess, i just gotta get over with it

2010-02-20T20:40:00.006+08:00

mood:relaxed=.=

SATURDAY!

hellloo dearest bloggers!well,today is a boring day for me.im at home right now..cryyyyyy:(i want to be outttt..pleaseeeee.......

i went out with didi deedee yesterday since nat bby was out for chingay.rindu*

meet didi at 330 and we jalanjalan.

i bumped into fathi,ayib&the rest of his friends at Tamp:)
I saw my old crush!!I didn't tegor him bcus i was scared if he was the wrong person.hehe.I was waiting for him to smile back at me& yes!HE IS HIM!!!

the hot geek::D
He texted me to say that I grew abit:D yeay!:D
so yeaps,i&didi is like fcuking @$%#!#^% angry with the crowds bcus most of the place are full.haiyah...irritated.
we headed to eat ljs.
me&didi bumped to wardah bby:)
gess!guess what?i was like@#$*& when i saw topman at tamp.
im haunting for the nike shoe.so ex=(.but yeaps i will begged mama!:D
psst:SHOULD I PIERCE MY TONGUE???thinking*
i was irritated bcus the movie i wanted soo muchh is not out yet!boohoo:(
we watch Percy Jackson & the Olympians: The Lightning Thief at 450pm.it was damn crowded.the movie has started by the time went in.we walked ignorantly infront of the people who was seated.the fun part begins.i love Logan lerman!!!owhh myyy...you have to watch it.no regrets!
Wawa piggy planned to watch that movieee...I thought she wanted to watch the tooth fairy.hehe,sowiee idah beylo..
rated the movie:10/10:D
I want to watch this movie!!but but sadly,its Nc18.sobs sobs=(

meet wawa piggy at bedok:D
i miss you like a millions of hL srawberry milk!whee:D
im happy to be with you though:D
wawa is >3!:D
&she is my steamyeyesgf:D

i made surveys for shoes,my top four on my list:
1)nike
2)lacoste
3)mary jane
4)crocs

missing you moree & moree each day.
lovee nerdy swooty all time favourite:D
i miss you yesterday i miss you today:)
i miss you belo pig!

Okiee..i think i have type alot for today.well going continuee muggin again...
goodbye lovely dummy:D
rate my day:6.6/10
eheheee:D

im off to food gathering w fam:D
psst:IDAH GROWING EYY!

lots of love;idah
xoxoxo

sweetest baby, hug and never let go

2010-02-18T19:13:00.004+08:00

today is a sucky day.Im tired,feel stupid,full,miserable,hatred,lovee.Cousin cheered me up.thanks...
i couldn't take it&i broke into tears.I cried.seriously I don't really show my feelings to people but today i cried in public.wth!
Im confused.
I wish my day would be very hectic.You might think i'm crazy??hehe.yeah,how could i which my life is busy so that my brain shoudn't stop and die.lol=.=
didi topup her hp just to text me...aww...sweets*
Dear didi,im sorry if i hurt you.i don't mean it seriously.I know you're upset just now.i felt really bad.sometimes,i feel that you don't deserve to be treated like that&even be friends with me.I think i hurt you so much already.Im sorry.Im really sorry.
idah rindu&sayang wawa piggy many2:)
im missing you every minute.I swear,you make me smilee everytime i see your name appear on my hp:)
i want keep you in my pocket:D

"well,Life is like rollercoaster ride,you just have deal with it."

Life is finee for me but it hurts me everynight,i cried to sleep.
I couldn't stop shaking from all the crying I did last night.I crept back to bed,biting my nails then cried myself to sleep.Yeaps,I wept like a fucking pussy under my blanket.It was a stir of emotions.

When you treasure someone so badly,you don't just forget them.Goodbye is sucha strong harsh word.You won't use it to someone whom you treasure real badly.I've gotta admit,I'll miss the feeling of someone actually bothering me.

ok,i'll end here.it's time for me to chill.!i feel so hay wire everytime ey were there in my mine.

i wanna take a puff till i gone crazyyy and see ey weren't there anymore but sweetheart won't allow me.

the feeling is just too shitty.

only god knows how terrible it is to have that feelings.

im still trying to forget those...

well,whatever it is i will not turn back...Goodbye past.

ok bye.

2010-02-17T23:20:00.000+08:00

moving on

2010-02-17T23:10:00.008+08:00

mood:sinked&sad

dear best friend,

I'm sad that we can no longer be the same.

I can't be there for you if you need me anymore k buddy:)

Eventhough,we can't be the old us,i'm happy knowing you are happy with someone else.

You're great,the nicest butch i ever met.

The person who makes me laughed easily when she just smile showing her teeth!grins*

I promise i'll will miss when you were right beside me.

ily buddy.

and some friends , or i dunno who to categorise them as, i feel tt ey dun appreciate me. gosh, idk wht should i do. but to tear up now. its alright. i knw that in my heart, she will always b there fr me. nw, i jst wanna keep quiet and i wun bother their life no more. evn my closest friend changed. what happened? gosh. whenever i want t make it happen, ey wun. it hurts you know. sighs. mayb its meant t be this way. and yeah,i cnt stop anybody. im no one. nvrmind, im just a fcuking girl who have no relationship w them. I just hate it whnever i treasure this smbdy and then they treat me like wat and throw me away. whatever lah.

depressed and saddened:(

I miss you.I miss your lil hugs,the way u take my hands....&& ouh my i miss you already....Im sorry wawa.really.I felt bad.I felt sick,crushed,confused yet,loved. That hollow feeling deep inside which is uneasy,and then your tummy starts to fold over,and your heart starts to beat faster by the minute. I hate the feeling really.I don't wish this to happened.i know you are dissapointed.I wished things turned out differently.& yes i wanted to be close with you.Im miserable everytime when i keep thinking of you.

If only i'll given one chance to speak to you,i will whisper to you saying that I really really miss you..thanks nat for lending your ears to listen to my problems.i won't give up baby

If ive wished on a star, ive wished you to be with me forever:(

p/s: i mst be strong, im scared i fall sick.

you rocks my socks!

2010-02-17T12:15:00.014+08:00

god!i was bloghopping to some blog.AND i have to agree to them that Justin bieber have great voice!
I'm in love to his songs especially "where are you now".if only my girlfriend can sing like him.tell you,i meltsss*hahaha.
yesterday planned didn't turned out the way it should be.yadda yadda yadda lazy to elaborate further.
My bee and I are facing some problems lately.It's like everything is crashing in one day.I HATE THAT!to my sweethearts cheer up k girls.I understand how you feel.calm down.I'll be there for you girls no matter what.hugs*
our relationship didn't turned out the way i expected.It feels kinda weird.
i miss girfies,gs,ttm sooo muchhh:'(
people changed and i know i've changed too.
I don't hope for you to come back to my life.It's nerve wrecking.This mix emotions suck big time.I didn't expect you to text me cause i thought you have moved on.I hate to repeat the same mistakes again.well,I'm going with the flow right now.
blogger is going haywire right now.

watch tooth fairy

2010-02-15T18:06:00.001+08:00

THE TOOTH FAIRY!!

mood:misses
Hello monday!
i woke up at 7 today all bcus of thas&ahmadpiggy.They text&called me saying that he is on the way to meet me.i was like "wahliaow"!hehe.i rushed to the toilet& bath ready.Thas is a stupid pig lah.
meet thas,ahmad&adeq under my voiddeck.
hanged out with them for awhile.we parted at 9.
I miss them so much.Thank you so much forthe meet up.IMY.
i thought of sleeping when i got home but yeah my sis like hantu,asked me to on the com.hehehe.lameee hor.
didi takecare okie,go rest your mind well&takecare of yourself too.
I'm going meet with Wawamonster tomorrow.wheee.im excited!hehe.
im chatting with cha2&kakak bby.cute&adorable sisters.
can't stop laughing to cha2 jokes.hehe.farni girl.chat with her like gilaaa.huhu:)
nat bby,are you ok?you sound upset in your last msg.do beep me otey.I MISS YOU GF!
i will be there listening to all your problems.ily:)

i miss your hugs
i miss your hands
i miss your kiss
i miss everything about you.
& I MISS YOU ALOT!

loves;idah xoxo

Happy Halloween!^^

2010-02-14T22:43:00.004+08:00

This barbie doll is wawaaa< minus the stomach!

LovesLoves<3

YO PEOPLE:) Hehe. Am back again, sorry for the sonotlongbreak*winks. Was searching for a nicernicer blogskin uh bebe. Got a new blogskin but still not satisfied cause its so freaking difficult to find a nice one. Now then i update about today. wished wawa is not busy and can have late night talks but too bad. So, just now went out w family to go to sentoa,PACK! Hahas, then, tak jadi(walk2,talk2,laugh2,crap2) at VIVO, gerrrrek! Then we went play in the water and i was tricked kakak about something and wanted to see how she reacted, lucky she is patient(not bad).

Then, we went to get 7-11! Next, off to ferry terminal for a while. There was few couples kissing with roses in their hand, actually i was abit jealous. For? Then I was so happy that there were memories of us tugeda at the park and if god willing i want t celebrate valentines w her again for the 2nd year ! woooohoooo! Sighs, time will flies so fast. Then we cab-ed to homeeeeeee.

p/s: need to get back my interest in camwhoring, all my picas are old!, hehes.

Sweeeeet sweeeet dreams! Tata.

valentines day

2010-02-14T21:51:00.008+08:00

mood:busy busy busy
hello sweethearts!
sorry for not updating.I was really weally busy these few days.
yesterday:
so thought of going to sentosa but i was late again,by then so we didnt go and decided to stick to other plans.
Wawa was so hungryy.:D
Tuck in at marche.I had my chocolate swiss ice cream w wafer and a chicken cheese sausage while love had her chicken cheese sausage and we shared this octopus something:D
we couldn't finished up the food.wasted lagi*hehe
Ewwwwww, every card loss cause 100 bucks. And, i saw the intestine of the dunnoe what in the air! seriously, lucky i din eat alot,i sat down , playing food! smilling like mad dog seeing wawa pains when she open her mouth big. Ohmy holy shit, !
we were watching the 9pm show.had one hour more time.
sorry,choosing of seats sucked.hehe:p
i love the valentines movie above!the movie was quite devastated.i couldn't stop myself from crying.heh.go watch it.
rated the movie:8/10.love kept on laughing during the movie.
couldn't control her laugh*hehe.After the movie,went to istana park.
we sat there for fifteen minutes i guess.tangankaki is wet.haha.lol.I was nervous already.wawa went somewhere to do something already and left me to close my eyes.lol.hehe
You bring a joy to my heart,
I've never felt before,
you made a love shape out of lighting candles in the midst of the quiet midnight,
and say the words i can't say,
that night will be the night i won't forget.
with each touch of your hand as you wore me the necklace,
I love you more and more.
thanks wawa for the flower.u sweets banget:D
soon,we decided to get attached to each other(happy)
Whenever we say goodbye,
whenever we part,
know I hold you dearly,
deep inside my heart.
To: DEAR,

gf,i was seriously shocked that we made it yesterday. serious giler sey. Im so proud of us. And, im so so so sorry to make you wait-ed. I forc-ed my words out and i feel so shy. Seriously, i hope that things will be good like just now. Imso so proud of us. *Sayang u banget. Hope you will have a nice sleeeeeep after all those working overtime today.

to syafiq:not so fat is not cutee.I feel like a shit!haha:'(

ouh well,happy v'day sweethearts!^^
Everytime I think of you
I feel shot right through
with a bow of gloom.
It's no problem of mine
but it's a problem I find
my heart beats faster when i see you(????)

Everything you say
Every time you kiss, I can't think straight
But I'm okay
And I can't think of anybody else
Who I hate to love as much as Im loving you

Grrr. perfect? Cool kapah? mmmm,idahwawa's. Heh. Alrights, some picas soon on wawa's blog when we was at istana park.

Wawa b is loving my dimples.funny girl. uh,klame. thanks bby for the wonderful day.

I want to watch "tooth fairy" movie pretty pleaseeee!!with cherry on top??

I need to saveeeee(!)hahaha.idah cakap aje tapi in the end tak save.oklah,i'll saveee!!!
meet nat soon okie:D
till then,goodnights homies!^^

& tuesday meeting love!yeepee!
Isayanguskit,i rindu u bnyak skit(: ,

untuk love:
1402 means a lot,
Much more than any another day;
I give my love for you,
And will cherish you in every way.
Through passing time, our love will still grow;
It will last through all good times and bad.
Our upcoming days together still shines bright,
With more good times to be had.

loves;
idah

dah cukup dengan perangai kau;

2010-02-13T00:52:00.002+08:00

hello earthlinks(: gah. tdae nth muched happened though. hahas, beeeen v busy u knw. heh. so, tdae morning went to breakfast w mama. back, bathed again. ^_^ was v fun though. hahs. then wnt abg shop, pinched at cheeks as usual. started playin w hp and deleted mst of my messeges. yeahs. dissapointed though(: so, nth much. nw talkin to kakak<3. so, v boring. so now, my grasshopper want to bam bam.

Anyway,my thursday was absolutely bad.How can i turn to be like this?i musn't get overboard with myself like this,so not like me.Actually i am so pissed with this person,who spoiled my thursday.you can suck balls or your mother tits lah!finally,i feel so finee after venting it out here.

pada kamu iean dan betina, pi jalan, aku tak heran agy ah siah. *palats betol.

and, yah. so,tu je lah. seriously, dah cukup nan perangai kau k? hees. suka hati kau la nak cakap apa. k lah(:

thanks waa,for being there for me whenever i need someone to listen to all my ups and down.ily!

I've been dealing with people around me who is trying their best to ruin my life.I won't fall back easily cause you don't know me.

to nat bby:baby,i know how you're feeling right now.stay strong k!ily:)

to dear ex collegues:i have lost all my patience so if you would like to meet text me please and indicate where and what time or you will be ignored.so sorryyy sweethearts!:(

jap agy mama pekik, idah, da kul rapa ni?

ohhhhh, kul 12 pagi kot(:
hahas. k. crap. got to go.
so, take care readers,
x o xo', idah(:

somewhere someone
tomorrow will be out with love.Hope everything will turn out great.A better day preety please??

suunday?out again....
ouh well,i'm off to bed now.sleepy as a pig already.
I want a better day pleaseeee.
goodnight sweethearts:D

(random!)
rindu: ahmad'al'juffri.

far far away

2010-02-11T14:51:00.002+08:00

wtf!blogger is getting out of hand.I can't change my fonts/publish pictures!!!grr!!I'm so pissed!anyway,i'm at home now.I HATE STAYING AT HOME!had honeystar&bread with milk just now.NO hope for gaining weight!god!must workhard on it.
I can't make it for yesterday lunch with cousin.Tomorrow alright i promise:D
My one girlfriend had a breakdown yesterday.pfft.Nat bby!b stronghoney!PROMISE IN THE DARK!haha.
I WANT COLD ROCK ICE CREAMY WITH GUMMY BEARS pleasee!!
ANYONE BRING ME TO LORONG MAMBONG,HOLLAND VILLAGE PLEASEEE!!!
I want this ice cream!!!SOOO COOLLL YKNOW!!!!check it out:http://www.coldrock.com.sg/
don't mind the caplock cause am really angry with blogger!haha-.-
i can't take my eyes off those chiow doc martens!!!!should i get them?hmmm

RANDOM!

2010-02-10T03:38:00.000+08:00

' WOW! - 11 roses = $95 ?! says: text me baby

' WOW! - 11 roses = $95 ?! says: SAYANG KAO.

' WOW! - 11 roses = $95 ?! says: xo's

I say: oki bby

I say: SAYANG KAO JGK

' WOW! - 11 roses = $95 ?! says: love

' WOW! - 11 roses = $95 ?! says: MUACHS AH.

I say: w/o chocolate cheesecake

I say: love t

I say: MUACK

I say: hee

' WOW! - 11 roses = $95 ?! says: APE YG WITHOUT CHOC CHEESECAKE?

I say: ntah

' WOW! - 11 roses = $95 ?! says: EW.
' WOW! - 11 roses = $95 ?! says: ' WOW! - 11 roses = $95 ?! says: YOU KISS I SELALU TAK IKHLAS.

I say: means w/o choc cheesecake pun i syg uuu

I say: IKHLAS K

' WOW! - 11 roses = $95 ?! says: lols.

' WOW! - 11 roses = $95 ?! says: k jap

I say: okie

' WOW! - 11 roses = $95 ?! says: shank nga send i lagu

' WOW! - 11 roses = $95 ?! says: I PON SYG YOU IKHLAS.

I say: ohh

' WOW! - 11 roses = $95 ?! says: TAPI I BELOM GET OVER TU POMPAN.

' WOW! - 11 roses = $95 ?! says: :(

I say: I TAO

' WOW! - 11 roses = $95 ?! says: DHER ASYIK CALL I JE !!!

I say: yes

' WOW! - 11 roses = $95 ?! says: GRR

I say: You will be a stronger person by making it through this bby

' WOW! - 11 roses = $95 ?! says: :D

' WOW! - 11 roses = $95 ?! says: Thanks for the support.

I say: no mention

' WOW! - 11 roses = $95 ?! says: no mention or don't mention it.

I say: no mention

' WOW! - 11 roses = $95 ?! says: lol

I say: yupyup
' WOW! - 11 roses = $95 ?! says: urgh

' WOW! - 11 roses = $95 ?! says: love kao.

' WOW! - 11 roses = $95 ?! says: SAYANG KAO.

' WOW! - 11 roses = $95 ?! says: AKU TAU AKU TAK TUNJOK.

' WOW! - 11 roses = $95 ?! says: TAPI AKU SAYANG.

' WOW! - 11 roses = $95 ?! says: FAHAM!

' WOW! - 11 roses = $95 ?! says: AND STOP SAYING I DON'T CARE BECAUSE I DO.

I say: wait

I say: yu d kind hu dun show yur love??

' WOW! - 11 roses = $95 ?! says: WELL, I SHOW SOMETIMES.

WOW! - 11 roses = $95 ?! says: MOST OF THE TIME.

' WOW! - 11 roses = $95 ?! says: UHM.

' WOW! - 11 roses = $95 ?! says: IDK.

' WOW! - 11 roses = $95 ?! says: LOL

I say: hmmmkay

I say: im glad yu said this

WOW! - 11 roses = $95 ?! says: WHY?

I say: bcus i feel lyk posting it on blg

' WOW! - 11 roses = $95 ?! says: DON;T POST AT BLOG.

bedtime stories:D

2010-02-09T21:55:00.001+08:00

i'm hooked to valentine's day(!)

I've been away for quite sometimes.

thanks sweethearts for being there when i need you guys.thanks <3.
I'm sorry love that this awful misunderstanding&arguement happened.
sometimes,i don't realised&mean what i say.
I thought u didn't care about me anymore like you used to last time.
god,i miss blogging so much.it's been four days i've not update my blog.and FINALLY I MET COUSIN A-T-L-A-S-T!!!^_^haha.I'm so happy like a bird.Finally,it's tuesday!haha.idk why i am so happy about it but it's like finally i can have my saturday and sunday on my own and NO DESTRUCTION!.ok i know it may sounds stupid.I have not plan what am i going to do on the next week.urgh!going out with girlfriends/stay at home ooorrr tag along with the gstring to the club??

mood:exhausted

hello beautiful earthlings!:)
yesterday:
I had lotsa fun with cousin around me.I was hyper!she called me "gila girl"!hehe. In the afternnon meet thas at bugis junction. I thought of going this interview since i need work soooo muchh.lol.only god knows how much i want money now. & i bumped into my long missing friend,ahmad.I MISS YOU lah:(
i forced this person to accompany me to faceshop to get something there.I went to watsons to buy this hair serum.I went to alot of boutiques i could get for clothes.I bought food for this someone since i pity the look at this someone face.hehe:P
But eventually,i didn't meet munira&risha bby since there's stuff they need to do...
i'm really weally sad:'(
then,my monster called.we went to town.yeay!Finally,there's something to cheer me up. i told monster that i went shopping since i'm hundred&four percent depressed.hehe.lol.
I was freaking hyper yesterday.I laugh like no one bussiness.I wasn't myself yesterday.cousin had to stop me from spending.How bad could i be. I kept on telling cousin about guys who have curly wurly hair.*afro hair*.hehe.they can actually hide stuff inside their hair.A-w-e-s-o-m-e!:D thanks for the laughter baybeh.fried mars bar addict for now.yummmyyy!:D
marina square was great.i loving it!started shoping again at 6pm,then decided to chill at mc cafe.I got ripcurl slipper,mango tshirts,milkshake and ice-cream smoothie!yeepee!*kening naik-naik*
I was waiting for thas bby to finish shopping and unsurprisingly, i bumped into my this guy who wants me to be his company model.
Our legs were aching really bad.I was tired and we trained home.

thank you so much for the day.I really had lotsa fun yesterday.
i swear,taylor swift is pretty!:D
next week is my free days!whee:D

Today:
Klua g ct hall cuh beb! yea tkr size kasut and beli tanktop mango aku. Hahas. i want to scream my lungs out.i am bloody frustrated just now.bloody mat salleh!lols.k i think i should stop saying bloody word again.*insert all vulgarities*seriously,i was all frustrated,paranoid and it feels like a pile of rancid shit.wth!Idk why he have have to hold my hand and he feels like i like it that way and i wasn't ok:( you sicko,i'm so disgusted by your attitude.I so pissed lah!*inhale exhale* Kay then, kene go abg shop. Then kene cubit pipi? Shit man! Hehes, abg say adek kekek siah. Then dunno ape lagi uhh. today going to luch with cousin.Risha has enrolled for her las vegas school. Wil update soon!
i told kakak about some problems i faced now,she understood.
thanks kakak for the advice.
I love you kakak very much:D

Meeting cousin tmrw, not really satisfied.

Love, meet you on SAT.miss you much!

To: ChaCha,

Rinddddduuu u tooooo:D Have fun friday alrights? Teeeehes, sorry . I still feel bad dearest. LOVESLOVES!

To: Girlfies,

Meeeet friday? Misses.
GOOOOODNIGHTS CITIZENS:D LOVELOVE.
Humhum:D

To: Mama,

you are so so cute! Keep on sulking, ily<3

Tata people,
gonna have fun.
Love<3

To lovE: baby,just letting you know somethings i had in mine.
well,things had surely changed alot especially us.
I don't know whether you noticed it.
dear,i just miss the old times really bad.
The happy times we had,when we really closed.
eventhough i rarely meet you last time,your everyday text will always make me happy knowing what were you doing and stuff every single day but it's different now.
i'm lacking the attention from you.
It's like we don't treat each other like we used to anymore.
i tried to make things to be like before but i think i never did or failed.
everythings changed love.
i'm trying to run away from all negative emotions but i can't.
if only i could wish for a miracle to happen.
i only wish things could be back to normal.
you told me once,to tell you the truth what i feel and i hope you do too.
i think i've said enough.
pleasseeee i hope we never drift just like that again.

p/s: update picas of ahmad soon.

falling deeper

2010-02-05T20:50:00.004+08:00

mood:calm:)
hello sweets!:D
I meet wawa.ouh my,i miss you so much dear,like millions of green apples you suka!*giggles*i woke up early,i was sleepy,tired& yes,I am really upset with kakak.
thanks nenek,you will always there to comfort me when im in a bad terms.ILY nenek:)
wawa texted me to meet her at downtown.i was taking my own sweet time,strolling all by myself there.And stupid matreps who kept asking me to donate 2bucks for this charity thingy.*roll eyes
Ended businesses at 9 and wawa waited for me till 10pm till he oogle at this girl.geess...Aku lambat:(
surprisingly,i was shocked.there was alot of people there.very paisey indeed=.=
seriously,idah cant talk alot.I don't know how to.lol.thanks love for surprising me:)
& seriously,mirabonch&miimnye&fana&jay is nicee:D They look prettyhawt.aww:D
i was abit bored& lucky i had my hp entertaint me:)i decided to tag along with love&friends to taxi stand.Then we to g t the park.It's my first time& im nervous.hehe:)
i joined her play count stars(whatever it is*)hehe.
that moment was heaven.I was enjoying every minute of the time.yeepee!
we huuged only.hehe.okay,for the first time i agreed to this,"im in love."hehe
i had goosebumbs.i think it is manageable.Hoping for the three words.ouh god pleaseee:)*cross finger*
end with a hug&goodbyes.
On the way home,natrisha entertaint me,trying to released stress i guess.
love,i miss you so much.And i really do.IMY:(
there is something not right.love,i know....haizz:'(
we parted at 12 we decided to go home sweet home,since all of us got tired ready=.=
wawa text me:)

~Finally, we get to meet. Thanks for watching the stars with me. (Y)
~When under the moon kan, when you hug me kan, I was like Wow, romantic nyeeeee!
~I fell in love with your eyes. I CAN GET LOSS IN YOUR EYES. dat;s why i say dont look at me. nanti i cair mcm mane?.!
IDA KNOW YOUR SENSITIVE PART!!!hehe.*evil laugh* sorry love!
i want watch "valentines day" with gstrings pretty pleasee.
ILOVEYOUSOMUCHGIRLFIES.......smiles*yeepee!happyyyyyyyyyy!!:D
i miss cherryontop so much.i kangen you:)
I LOVE EVERY BITS OF YOU:D
my steamy eyes date.hehe:D

Your eyes, your smile.
Your touch, your kiss.
Your talks, your words.
Our everlasting bliss.

ily kak bby,no fights no more.i lovee you.
&sha&mun bby i really can't wait for the outings on sunday.
zana plan to work together!yeay!:)
im gonna spent my time with this 2 goodies!!hehe..
plus thas is gonna eat with me at seoul garden!!hehe..best sekali!!
outing with did!!!wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee:D

to nat bby:baby,I hope you are strong with what you're facing now ok.baby,i will always be there when you need me baby.ily.

take my hand,take a breath
pull me close and take one step
keep your eyes locked on mine
And let the music be your guide

i miss love. rindu.

2010-01-31T20:08:00.002+08:00

hello hunny bees!^^
Life is great for now!im enjoying every moment of it.
well,yesterday was a great day indeed.I followed mamanenek to eat.It's been so long,i've actually went out with those adore of mine.
Thank you so much to kakak for the shopping spree:D
sunday is such a bore to the max!
i want:
i want to study
i want to get promoted to poly
i want to go shopping
i want to travel
i want to go to la
i want money
i want to meet taiwan actors
i want hugs
i want to be happy
i want to be fat
i want more storys
i want new gadgets
i want nice hair
i want braces
i want chocolateoreocheesecake
i want a boyfriend(NO!)
i want digicam
i want piggybags
i want someone to be my my side
i want to go to movies
i want to eat
i want roses
i want surprises
i want someone to sing me to sleep
i want a miracle
pleaseeeeeeeeee!^^

untuk love: For now,we are going throught alot of obstacles.i know i know.what ever happen i will be there for you girl.rinduuuuu:(
At night talked on the phone with love.idahmissyou:(

well,3more days to our 1st date:)
i am really exciteeddd,exciiteeeddd sekali okay:D
i want spent my day with cherryontop only:D

underneath the moon, underneath the stars
here’s a little heart for you
up above the world, up above it all
here’s a hand to hold on to
you're just the one that i've been waiting for
i'll give you all that i have to give and more
but don't let me fall
you'll be the one that I’ll love forever more
ill be here holding you high above it all
but don’t let me fall
(don't let me fall-lenka)

my dear, im sorry :( & I MISS YOU ALOT

2010-01-30T01:10:00.001+08:00

INI UNTUK LOVE
Sometimes at night, when I look to the sky,
I start thinking of you and then ask myself, why?
Why do I like you? I think and smile,
because I know the list could run on for miles.
a sense of completion and overflowing pride.
The dreams that I dream, that all involve you,
the possibilities I see and the things we can do.
How you finish the puzzle that lies inside my heart,
how that deep in my soul, you are the most important part.

It is so hurting,i don't want to jump into conclusion and getting myself all stress up again.i do miss every seconds with you.i do want to be like those girls happily with their couple,i really do.love just have to wait for this kind of things.

i miss you. words just couldn't be explained.
i miss those late night calls.
i miss it so much.i just want you to notice me im here!!!:'(

I'm scared.You makes me smile whenever i see you msg.But again,maybe i'll let it be.....
well,im sorry if i say i tak kuat lagi.

i miss cherry on top very much.
miss me too otey?:)

.p/s: :'( labelled sad and you,you want it, you get everything of it already. Happy?

Things just come and go.

2010-01-29T22:22:00.003+08:00

Quite obvious that he did not have enough sleep

mood:sleppyyzzzestaticontented!
Hello sweethearts!
yesterday was a really bad day!!!
i believe in karma!!haha
i miss my another boyfriend which is my hp!:'(
yeah,my camera died!pfft!
i'm thinking twice whether should i get it repair or new camera please(?)so today,sisteRenu went to the Verge earlier in the morning since they wanted to renew their passport book.I decided meet sisteRenu later since i still wanted to have my long sweet sleep first.lols.
at 7am,kakak called me:
kak:idahh,bangun la!nak pegi makan tak?pegi mandi sekarang!
me:alaaaa,malas lah kak.nak tido please kak..
kak:*kak angry*ape nie anak darah nie,tahu tido aje ehk..idah pegi bath sekarang.kakak tell renu baru tahu.
me:!$#%^&^^*(!!!!ok ok bye larh,nak mandi nie!!byee...
hahaha.see how rude i am.no larh,i was really weally sleepy bah.
i took 66 to dickson road and meet sisteRenu there.After we filled our tummy,went to class to start the crap.
i meet leroy for awhile to pass him the sketches i did and walked t class.
today graduation was awesome!
I really miss sweethearts alot but some couldn't make it on time.boohoo:'(
we eat,talk-ed,laugh-ed,crap-ed&camwhore-ed.My favourite!^^
i took picture with this hot guy at class!!omg!!!so cuteee!!!:D*jealous banget*
hehe.
Danieel came to me and gave me chocolates!:D.aww so sweet!& leroy im gonna smack you!:p
I really had a great time with you Gstring's.we will meet soon ok,i'll promise!!
and and sorry dear friends for not replying your text sometimes,my hp connection is like dumb ass.sowiee.
NAT messeged!!^^she is just like a monster!!
at 6pm,i&sis meet david bby at amk.i miss abg ipar!
Sis was egg-cited to see david bby!he cuddled her really tightly.she is safely home.rindu you many many:'(
we tucked in at hawker.sis&me went to the hp shop and settled outside the fon.which idk what he did t it.hehe we got a replacement.sis bby lose twice.hehe.By then it was already 8pm,we bussed home sweet home.
ttm meet soon okay!^^

girlfies menghilang??!!:(
imissher.
im heading the sheets now.
goodnights:)

update later.
loves;
idah

goodnight earthlinks. take care, rmbr, sweeet dreams.
uhh, this and that. this and that. dangggg, gone~
wanna go sleeeeeppppp ~

p/s: hate drive thru people. bye!

missing period. full moon

2010-01-28T23:19:00.005+08:00

matt prokop^^
omg!he is cutee!^^

mood:chipper

hello world!
today was spent brilliantly with sister&csp bby..kakak&renu bby called me in a perfect timing when i was sleeping.I'm sick,really sick missing bantal busuk.They save my day!
I meet them at my bustop and bussed to the Verge.I thought of buying food but then i don't know which food to buy.grrr!!assholess right!hehe.
sorry sully bcus i can't meet you this week.A big big apology:)
yes,will meet kamu soon!:D we decided to tuck in at old chang .After we filled our tummy.we wait around the lobby mcm no life gitu.hehe. we talk2 and yeaps,we surveyed some people there.
Next month is shopping spree!
We bumped into this hot hunk!!*kening naik-naik*
By then,it was already 9 plus,and best timing to enter class.Kakak bby semangat-ly went to talk t people.
unsurprisingly,my stupid fon became a bitch again.*
I want to own this vaio laptop.pretty pleasee with a cherry on top!!^^
i won't say this incident that happened to us.baik sekali.shhhh....
around 9 plus,we decided to chilled at rooftop.we bumped into Leroy&his friend.They are so sweet:)
pac man entertaint me!thank you pac man!^^
Afterwhich,we bussed home sweet home.
i stayed up all evening to finish up on my sketch play for dear team.I hope you like it!:D
later:Im meeting renu bby in the morning.We will buy some foods and headed to class since we'r going to eat in the afternoon nwae.
Thanks renu bby for accompany-ing me later.ILY sweetheart:)

will update later.
loves;
idah

i really miss these people that have been really entertaining to me.

cherry on top
taufik batisah!*laughs*
beyonce knowles
justin beiber
nicole pcd
mariah carey
tyra banks
miley cyrus
the simpson sisters
avators&twilights

I miss you people.loves:)

Specially for:

Ohana:
Mama:
Thanks for being here for me and thanks for helping me out in my school. Aishteru mama<3
Sisters&brothers:
Take care kak nora and always b patient aites,take it slow babe and rmbr ill always b here fr you.
Take care abg khalid, ang razman, uncle zainaland take care of this baby, im sure she would be vry adorable~ i miss those times laughing in class.
Aishteru my sisters & Last long w lovelies<3
Cousins & Family:
Esp: Thaslim(: aku rindu kamu.
Miss you all~ Take care and stay strong.

Gstrings:
WawaB: *, stay strong and if you need me, beep me(:
Renu: Babe, chill aites, im always here, heh(:
Natrisha: Babe, stay preety, rindu tau and patut kluar soon tawu(:
Didi: Babe, rindu jgak, dun fall apart yeah, thanks fr those words tt cheered me(:
Risha: Babe, imysm! as promised, will spend mre time after our job secured,baober.
Munirah: Babe, stay hot~ and meet soooooon(:
DyLoved: Babe, rindu tawu. will go out soooon! (:
Khais: Dude, rindu jgak! go out sooooon(:
Ina: Babe,meet up soon(: SWEETTT!
Suzaana: Babe, take cre of nizam, and stay preety my little star(:
Dino: Dude, rindu rindu , take care tau(:
Raihana: Babe, imyt, stay strong alrights, will go out soooon(:
Aishah: Babe, i wonder hows you now, heh, rindu, tk jumper2 pun? heh.
Francis: Dude, lalalala~ heh, hot, our blind date(:
Shafeeq: Dude, i rindu sngt kt u, hah(: hows, ms idah? (:
Lisa: Babe, take care, yup, imy, last long tau lisalai(:
Nisha: Babe, sty sweet and smile always, well ofcourse imy(:
Khalisa: Babe, last long w michael(: smile always.
Raphl: Babe, rindu jgak, keluar soon tawu(:
Huda: Babe, im happy to see you happy and last long w azri, take cre, miss you(:

p/s: i miss all of those names stated above larh(: ily all and thanks fr cming by my life, hopefully our love still goes on. Aishteru<3

This Guy:
Baby: And yeah, i hate that stupid guy who cant keep his mouth shut, i hate you, i hate you! If you really wanna spread it, go ahead, i hate you. Such a friend, no need lah ey in life. Suka hati kau lah, jantan tak guna, patut uh, tkde org syg pt kau. And, stp it k nk bbl world. *Rawwrr, you made me irritated!

Groups:
CSP:
-Hey people, were graduating soon, hope that we cn stay close together always alrights. Like what mr john said, were the best, no matter wht, he still loves us and no one cn ever break us up(: Good luck seniors,stay together, its the inside of us not the outside alrights(: Love ya all and eating at restauran was funfunfun(: Ily all<3
Esp: Leroy.Daniel,Robert,Hui Shan
(: last long.

Contemporary Dancers:
-Hey dancers, i graduated. Even though i din have much time to be your chairman, but i still enjoyed being w you all. All those hard times and happy times together. Although we din make the school proud, i have lots of trust in you people. Bring up the club properly, dun disappoint ms shining and ms wong anymore, they are the best of the best instructors. I promise i'll cme by when im free alrights. I love love you girls alot!
Esp: Huda,Molly,Melynda,Kim,Li min,Jing jing,Melda,Hai An,Bea,Jade,Jie Min,Yi Ling,Kathleen,China dolls,Juniors(: Take care, imyall.

Gp Members:
-Well, thanks for bringing good memories to my life ya people(: For the past 6 months of programmes, i enjoyed lots(: especially those officers. Take care and do gather soon!
Esp: Kevin, and Instructors frm high achievers(:

3C/4C:
-Now, you people have led your own life, i jst hpe for the best(: Take care and good luck for degrees alrights(: Ilyall. Im happy to have been there and know you all. Thanks for always being the funny,hyper,fun and outgoing people(: Thanks fr accepting me.

Malay Intensive:
-Fun and thanks for evrything(: Gather sooon ~

Taiwan Group:
-Hope to have gathering soooon! Heh. Misss you all and those times (:

Teachers:
-Mrs Chua Ong, thanks fr always being here fr us(: we really love you, your special.
-Mdm Nooraini, mummmmy, stay sweet, imy,ily and thanks fr evrything.
-Mr Ho, imy mr hohoho~ take care.
-Ms Tan, thanks fr being there fr me, your like my sister, always there fr me, thanks once again and stay preetty(: ily!
-Mrs Jasmine Chua, eh cher, our night out when uh? hahas, thanks fr cheering me up, im so touched by all those advice, and i will miss our jokes abt ms liu and contem(:
-Ms Liu, eh cher, you also, owe me our girls night(: stay preeety and get married soon(:
-Ms Moey, you rock, ily.
-Mr Foo, gt married soon alrights(:
-Mr Goh, thanks fr being my fav science teacher.

p/s: and all other teachers thanks fr everything.

Her:
Just wanna talk to you face to face after you come back alrights(:
Smelll ya~

And to sum it up, i love those people who came up to my life and miss you all, dun just go,you all tooo. (for those who i din mention their names)

Alrights, these is the end of my post alright.

Smell ya(Renu's word, haha)
When i stop learning, i stop living.(Leroy's word)

I'll wait for you,since you hope so too..
then i'll better not walkaway from you.
but i really miss you tapi idah know you do too..

my beloved's fourtyeight

2010-01-27T20:55:00.003+08:00

Especially to Mama B:

A very happy birthday to my one and only dearest mama b, mama, have a blast lifetime alright. Im sorry if ive ever been bad t you or have evr hurt your feelings alright b. I love you s much. Your the one who can understand me s wel and who can listen t me, pamper me, get bullied by me. Haha. And yeah, were still as strong as we are. Those times whn we always hang out till late night in my room, on my bed, having heart to heart talks. And those memories, we wn ever break apart. Your already like my own life, my blood. And im sure kakak and abang knws hw close we are. Evn your siblings and mine too. Hee ^^ Have a blast, we can only rely on each other before its too late alright b. I love you s much and sorry f those complications. May god bless you and us and

stay strong. ^^ Mwa Mwa. You go mummy, im always here.

Cal me.

Takecare.

Sayangaleta.

Your anak<3

Today ws just a plain mmmm, a lil disappointed day, so imma out and gg f my beauty sleep. Lappy is a bitch lately.

Love: *, ive made up my mind and my heart. *, dn evr do this anymre. I wana b with you frever,please. I want your love only. I hpe t see you bck again, really, its going t b s s hard. Later you do this again, i run far far far away and nvr cme bck again. Your the only one who make my day even thou sometimes it cant b prfct anyway. Im profusely sorry, you ditched my heart alrdy. Mayb its jst that, ive nt gotten your love.

till then,
loves;
idah

Goodnight lovelies out there, khais kept texting. Mmhmmkay, i go bam bam bam bc you wan put me t bam bam right. Tsk, abit abit angry abit abit only what. Sweeeet dreams and beautiful nightmare. The sky is dark and the night is old. K lame, tata lovelies.

1.35 Am - Gooooooooooooooooodnight!

(kakak putting me t bobok while listening t radio = syiok)

Goooodnight world, sweet dreams and xoxo.

Hello world.

2010-01-22T01:00:00.001+08:00

happy good friday people!^_^

so i know. ive nt been updating since like weeks ready man. hahas. too much for being hiatus.haha.During this mia-ing,there was alot of things happened.and of course idk where should i start.friendships.idk,just a brief conclusion of what had happened.

Hola, its been so long since I blog. Mhmm,kay. Wel, things are a little cock up f me thou. But, im trying t b as strong as I can. Sigh, firstly, Ive quit wrk alrdy and till nw its almost the second/ third week im not working. Its a lil nerve-wrecking but I managed t pull it thru with the help of my Sis. I love you Sis <3>Next, mhmmkay, im super dissapointed f my results, I swear, the only thang I cn do now is pray hard and ask help frm god. Oh my gooney, all my friends got their wonderful results and here I am still thinking abt my regrets while im supposed t g out wild and enjoy. Tsk* Crzy la, this feeling is s crzy tt make you wanna g crzy. K, dumb. Just few mre weeks t results. Just few mre days t mum baby bdae, new wrk and just few mre weeks t chinese new year. Sigh, why time fly so fast. Tsk. Anyway, to those who gt their wonderful results, congrats to al and wrk harder f diplomas, you might want t start studying nw or else wil b like me, lmenyesal doesnt wrk. Huhu. Lets nt talk abt it anymre.
Gfs are busy w their own things and we hardly meet up. Sigh, idknw wht t do either bc f evry friendship this is one thing tt wd definitely happen, separation. Its s hard tt it breaks my heart, wth? Since when I bcome s lame? since you came. Kay mhmm, enuf. oh ya, i rindu my tok foooooo so much and ms laiiii and ms mooooey :( Hee. Tsk, i miss school times, i dn wana wrk, s tiring, i rather do maths hmwrk. heee. Very fuuuunny. Err, wel, thats it abt my life, wrk, eat, sleep, interview, eat, sleep and it goes on and on. Plain boring. Besides, if I g out , idknw whr t g either bc Singapore is s boring, s small, but i still love Singapore. Hee. Mhhmm, realy dnknw wht t do ley, even mum's baby bdae havent have any plans yet? Wth can. Ish, s lazy la girls. Meet up soon kay.
Love: Big hug, xoxo, mwa :)
Err, thats all world. Anyway, you people must watch new movies, its the bestest movies evr, no regrets. Hee. I got to go alrdy , need t sleep and g course and off t dnknw whr, bt wanna buy mac powder.(Y) Wanna g orchard, saphore/or dnknw wht la. Huhu, al those out thr, happy ending holidays. Lots of love and big hugs f you , mwa mwa.

Labels: addicted t you, mwa.

holly molly.

2010-01-07T23:38:00.002+08:00

hello!
sorry lovelies for not updating aye.
i am busy with courses lately.
will be updating soon or never.hehe.kidding:

ORESULTS is around the corner.
goodluck sweeties!:D

Does anyone call you baby?

- Yeaps,my gerlfriends

Favorite fruit?

- er....grapes!:D

Relationship Status?

-single...yeah

Are you scared of spiders?

- yes!eee.gross

Do you have a piercing ? How many?

- two

Kissed someone in the last twenty-four

hours?

-Nopes

How long does it take for you to take

a shower?

-an hour.

Do you like being around a large group

of friends, or two best friends?

- yeaps, the more the merrier:D

Whose birthday is coming up?

- emm...i don't know.hehe

Do you like roller coasters?

- Not really

What did you last drink?

- pink dolphin:D drink what asshole?

Do you have a tattoo?

- Nopes nopes

What was the last movie you went to?

- so long ago

Do you care what others think about

you?

- Yeah, Somehow..

Do you think you'll be married in 10

years?

- yeah should be...hehe

Do you plan on moving out in the next

year?

- nopes.i love staying here with mama:D

Are you afraid of the dark?

- Yes yes!

Do you like your life at the moment?

- never been worst

Ever talked to someone that was drunk?

- Yeaps. Pathetic =.=

Can you handle the truth?

- have to see first

Where were you last night?

-At home??

What brand of shirt are you wearing?

- huh?now?im wearing pyjamas stupid*.*

How late did you stay up last night?

- 2 plus

Did you ever lose a best friend?

- No...No more please.

loves;idah

muaksx!

Tell me wrong, pull it through

2010-01-03T01:23:00.009+08:00

i wanna change my hair colour again*

mood:hyper!:)
hello lovelies!
well,today decided to stay at home since didnt go to work again.:)
im fully prepared to get to work on monday.geess=.=

Friday:
yesterday went out with sister & her guy's friend.
i meet them at boon keng & off to eastcoast:)
reached eastcoast at 2.They decided to buy some snacks.i complained to themthat i broke my slippers again.hehe.sorry for complaining*hehe:)
gonna haunt for tops,hot pants&red belt!! :)
not forgetting i still need to buy accesories&bag:)
I want PAINTPAINTHAIR ASP!!heh

Lynn(my ex gf) texted me&had a long messeges about somethings for a whole halfnhour.

Iean = "kuncupengecut"(hide behind the gfs back)hehe
Lynn was like@%$^#^&% bcus she thinks that i made up story about Iean.

The fight went.blablabla...& guess what, she wanna put MY PICTURE AT HER blog.write bad things about me&post to all butches she know.mepek*hine idah tak perlu siolxx.hehe:p
"i know u jealous,my skins nice.u don't talk much bcus ur eyes is juling already:p
okay nak berani kalau boleh;( hehe
I was laughing with my sister,was jumping jumping&laughing non stop:D

I HATE MINAHS.fcuking irritating.get a life.
around 3.30++,we off to home to sleep.yeay!:)
find foods&settled.slept:)
boohoo....sleepypigs*
thanks for the nice outing you guys:D
I really miss dancing . hoping i wish to join any crew perhaps ?wish*

INI UNTUK CHACHA
Sorry for the question, i asked why?
Why do suspect you? I think and smile,
because I know the reason could not be you.
so many little things that you make for me.
The way you support me, and help with my emotions,
the way that you care and show such devotion.
how that deep in my soul, you are the most important friend.
I could go on for days, telling of what I feel,
but all you really must know is our friendship is real.

Ini untuk Rique:
sorry for not being much of a help.
I was hoping u would be ok.
u should alrytes.
i will be there listening to all your problems

&i'll pray for you aye:D

okie then,
loves;idah

To:Whom I Can Say It Too When I Get The Right One.
a night will be the night i won't forget.
you're the sunlight of every single morning.
baby i lovee you.you.yes you.only you:)
& i love (NAME) so much:D hehe:D

If I could have just one wish,
I would wish to wake up everyday
to the sound of your breath on my neck,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
the touch of your fingers on my skin,
and the feel of your heart beating with mine...
Knowing that I could never find that feeling
with anyone other than you.

2010 babyy

2010-01-01T20:44:00.001+08:00

KRIS ALLEN!!!:D

GOD!!HE IS SO CUTE!*melts*

HAPPY NEW YEAR baby!!!

no more being lazy and sleepy like a pig!heh!

become a wiser person who can decide things for myself

excell in my studies

grow fatter please!^^

BE HAPPY EVERYDAY

happy friends!happy family!

start saving

and most importantly,what i wish for is to pass my O level and get the course i want in ite!

will be out with sister later.

I LOVE ROBERT PATTINSON^^

robert pattinsooonnnnnnnnnnnnn marryyyyyy meeeeeee pleaseeee!heh!

David Archuleta*he is so cutee

now,im addicted to the taiwan actors.hee:)
I miss my babys like aliens,monster,cats,donkeys!ape lagi nak?hehe.*risha,chacha&munira*
its gonna be a random post for today

i love:
i love mamanenek,sister&brother
i love girlfies
i love lpf
i love ttm
i love friends
i love my house
i love The simpsons
i love grey shades
i love holding hands
i love going out
i love to eat
i love going beaches
i love trying new things
i love ice cream&sushi
i love bubble tea
i love to talk
i love to laugh
i love being crazy
i love being loved by someone
i love hugs
i love kisses
i love pooh bear
i love shopping
i love starbucks
i love money
i love hey monday
i love movies
i love oreo&cookies&cream
i love to camwhoree
i love new friends
i love surprises
i love late night calls
i love chatting
i love blogging
i love work
i love to smile
i love musics
i love presents
i love rabbit
i love colours
i love windy days
i love to sleep
i love fashion
i love to colour my nails
i love dancing
i love crunchies bar
i love birthdays
i love to scream
i love reading magazines
i love the author named Lauren barnholdt
i love red,green&yellow
i love stupid&funny jokes
i love my mama handwritting
i love you
ok boring.

Dunia Baru today!don't forget to watch it!^^
loves;
idah

Bintang dilangit.

2009-12-31T23:35:00.004+08:00

Pictures fade, memories left alone

Ohya, 2009 been a bitch to me and Im welcoming 2010 with open arms. Hee. Looking forward f the good. And, dn want the same thing t happen. In 2010, I want everything t b alright. I want t start a new. I want t have a happy life and no mre tears no mre stupid things. Gonna b seventeeeeen alrdy. So, wake up, dn b s childish. Hee ^^ But, no worries, I wil nvr frget those gd thangs that happened in 2009.

Today, last day of the month and the year, s, lets start afresh. Anyway, im gonna b a goodgirl alrdy dn wana hurt anyone and wanna enjoy life t the fullest at the same time nvr frget the one up there watching me every move I make. Gonna b thankful t him f wht he gave. And, jst gonna pray hard tt life's gonna b fine. Insyaallah.

Geeee, s, goodnight world and have a great day tomorrow. Sweeet sweeet dreams t youall. ^^ Smile always and tkcre, Mwa Mwa Assalamualaikum'

♥ idadherose

UTTERLY DAUTED

2009-12-29T22:21:00.001+08:00

i cant take it anymore

Oh dang, im gg crazy. You you you! Its you, when when? I miss you can. Thanks and Sorry. Goodnight, sweet sweet dreams and sleep tight dun let the bed bugs bite. Im starting to miss you again.

Where are you now?
When I need you the most
Why don't you take my hand?
I want to be close
Take my hand and walk with me
Where are you now?
When nothing is going right
Where are you now?
I can't see the light
So take my hand and walk with me
Show me what to be
Let me go, set me free
Where are you now?
Now that I'm half alone
Why are we far apart
I feel all alone
Where are you now?
When nothing is going right
Where are you now?
I can't see the light

Where are you now by justin beiber:

Ooh hoo yeah
/to be continued

2009-12-17T02:30:00.004+08:00

mood:happy:D
Hello sweets!
well,today was a great day indeed.Alot of things had happened this week.

today at course, we played some games that had link to the course thingy.gees.i kind of rock at it=.= i is very egg-citeedd!!hehe

I was tired&bored and so i messeged with GFs.
Chacha bby:cheer up ok bby.Don't be sad about it.i will be there when you need me ok sweetheart.ily!smiles* end with a hug&goodbye.

4 MORE DAYS TO MY BIRTHDAY EARTHLINKS!:D

risha texted me at night.thanks kak for layan-ing me the whole night.meet up tmrw.

i wanna shop for moree moreeee stuff.i need moreee moree($$$$$$)!!hehe.ouh my...
like what risha&dy bby says"its all about moneyyyyy".lol.
i miss girlfriends,cuzins,4C,my missing in action fwens!!
meet up soon okay!rindduuuu temansku sooo much:'(

okiee,till then,coming to my cousins crib this weekend.
loves;
idah:D

2009-12-16T03:21:00.004+08:00

Pity her-

And, mintak simpati (:

Doubled. Lemme start, (: woke up early morning and went to course, seriously, i was so stupid cause i thought it starts at 1pm, so i went bck to work school at 2pm but in actual fact was the course starts at 6.30pm, so blur lorhx. Wagagaga. Uh-oh. Today was great, emmm. Made 4 appointments and finished by 6. It was raining heavily& munira accidentally fall dwn!! I feel so terrible,horrible.hehe. But it was a 'glamorous fall^^ It was really a miracle, seriously, i never expected it to happen but god knows how i feel now. Kecoh larh kiter. *hypeerr,crazy,mad. * thanks to god, she's fine! *wide smiles. And
for you, apologise for blogging about you alrights, since u dunwan, den i wun. I soooo adore monsters, so cute and so sweeeet lahhh, hahas. Went home crapping and hypering and monstering for half hours. Girlfies, i already planned some things and i think we will go out soon, look out on the event dates. Tomorrow have a lot to do- like omg, work at 11am to 2pm then go course at 3m to 9. Then go city hall to buy something with risha, so its gonna be a busy dayy yea. Geeees, learned strengths and resorces(at course) and while listening, busy checking saya punya handphone~messeging rique. But concentrated lars, then went to home, bath,watched HotShot. hahahas. So, tooook some picas and thanks ira(: Sweeeeet suppperrr. Alrights , im tired and wanna sleep early, tmrw got work and stupid course again, hahas. Siaoooox. Take care monsters!

No moooooooooooood nowwww, sleepy, tired, overstreched!
Bintangbintang(:

Lastly, My birthday is 5days away.

Cant wait-sweet 16

And. Rique's birthday is 6days away.
rmbr mine(:

p/s: imysm can? yeay.
cant go bck t sleeep.

XOXO,
idah

2009-12-15T01:45:00.000+08:00

I WANT SEE RAINBOW!!

I WANT SEE SUNSET TOO!anyone??

2009-12-14T23:36:00.000+08:00

Helllllllyeahs. Today was ohmyfcukingasstunandegginthesandwich FUN! *gagaga. Alhamdulillah,i booked 6 appointments today at werk. Today, sha went for a course. so, left me&ira beb. We toottoottrain back & bonced just to get a seat(So the wth). Hahas, then in the train we went blahblahblah and it was so pack. Ira was laughing so i laughed non stop till i reached boon keng(: We were like laughing all the way. Woaaaa~ We were rushing as mama wanted me to go home before sun set as I told her! Next outing w girlfies(: We'r planning a thriple date, geees.. So it'll b lyk 3guys&3ladies[; Yeaaaaay! Thats it, I bloggged enough! (: AND IMISS MY STARBUCKS SO MUCH!
Now wana watch Hotshot at channel u, so, tata. All taiwanese dramas are rawkpanties! Watch it people, its kinda nice~ Geees and the Momo love!! Alrightts, tata. Goooodnights! Tmrw i got a course people!! and i tell you,going on course is so boring. Wont be meeting ira&sha sweethearts. Catch up on wednesday baby. And Im dying my hair bck t the previous one;red blondish. eople say i look more sweeter&adorable in that colur.. Plus, i look lyk tyra banks with the current blond&light highligts;also like minah&fierce hotty in this[;(heees, its nice eh?)
I miss them so much!have to start saving from now! Alrightss, now im so kering(no money) , SAVING TIME!

promise?i don't think so.Miss u babes~
can't wait for next wednesday!ilbg!
I miss him.
I don't love him.
ok,i'll end here.

well,goodbye
hugs&kisses;idah

2009-12-14T01:05:00.003+08:00

hello, today was v boring. Half of the days gone and am still rotting at home waiting for entertainment yeas? So,ok. Planned everything and have to update sweethearts. Hurhur/ his going for a chalet, wonder what will happen? Am so bored, so bored. Cant wait for next weeeeek aye! Waaaa, just slacking all the way oi. Someone, save me la. geeeeeee , still coughing like mad dog, save me. K, im just blogging crap la dey.
ok,goodnight sweety!
loves;idah:)

GF menghilang? no way/

tooooodleees~

My first time blogging.

2009-12-13T00:23:00.002+08:00

new link..
new skin..
new friends..
new love..
new stories..
Hello everyone, i dunno why i felt like blogging.
So, yeah. Today is like the first day im active at work after 2days, and my colleagues&boss said i was good. *kening naik - naik. Tell you uh, i got t know someone by the name of NURISHA. Damnn, that preetysweet lady is like ohmyohgodlar. Gees, she's so nice and enjoying t be with. Even though she is so not connected to me, bee-ing together was like ''wow'' stop it sia. So back t the sweethearts, her sis met us after we ended work. Went to eat at Analaksmi restaurant, its a wide range of buffets. We can eat how much we want and pay at any price we wish t. Kind of charity thing that has been going on for years.
I took lots of food like yeay! I loved the pancake and orange lasty most! Yummy, Heees, then we decided t walk from clarke quey to camwhore near esplanade there. Lols, we were so so so hyper that people were looking at us. Risha and I was like going crazy and doing stupid poses while Aini was tahaning = enduring the pain in her leg. Really had fun like super mad dog lorhs. And when we reached there at night, Aini were tired so went home. While, we met Risha's guy friend. Am glad finding my sweethearts atleast can burn those stupid boring time at work. Lets have muchmuch fun yeah sweethearts (: Awww. Hahas, risha, ketawa lagy tau monday? Iloveyou. Looking forward for a better tomorrow and always hoping. I feel bad for mama cause i know i went out lots of time, promise wun go out no more only after work, i love you mama.

Only god knows how i feel and how i feel today/
Hope to fosee a better tomorrow,*tennisflyingkisses.

Alrights, got to move on now, i miss my "B's". i love you all.
Dada semua (: